True heart ache.

I have looked forward to this moment for a very long time. The day when my kid comes through the door from school, with a hand-crafted gift for me, for Mother's Day.

Today, my kid walked in the door, and told me that the gift she made was not for me. It was for Grammy. She said that it was a gift for someone special and that she did not want to give it to me.

My heart.just.BROKE.

I love my mom. And she is AWESOME with M and I love the bond that they have. But god DAMN if that did not make me feel like dying. That kid is my HEART. I know that she is barely 5, and does not understand the severity of her words... but still. She knows enough.. she knows that it was made for someone special, and that person is not her mommy. Ugh.

I feel like nothing. That truly hurt me.. in a way that I cannot describe. I am hoping that it is just due to severe PMS and in a day or so I will get over it. But right now? I cannot stop sobbing.

Ugh.