Random thoughts.

Hi. *waves*

This is probably going to be random and scattered, but, well, nothing new there, right? LOL

We picked up my mom last week at Pittsburgh Airport. M cried when she saw her. It was so sweet. My mom asked her why she was crying and M replied with, "Oh Grammy..these are tears of JOY.." Haha.
My kid is SO dramatic.

It has been so nice having mom around. I missed her. And I did not even realize HOW MUCH until she was actually here.

The weather has been wondermous. Cool evenings, warm days, foggy mornings perfect for sitting out on the porch with a steaming cuppa joe. I love sleeping with the windows open. I listen to the river as I drift off most nights. The birds start around 4:30 though, f**kers. So, I am usually awake at that time.

I need a hair cut in the worst way.

I also need to get back to exercising. Most of my time these days is spent getting school done. That is a very sore subject for me. It has taken me so long, for so many different reasons. And when I think about how in the time it has taken me, I actually could have attained a real college degree..well... it makes me grouchy so we will just move on mmkay?

Depression is a real bitch. I do not believe that I suffer from clinical depression. My depression is situational. After what I have been through, I think it is NORMAL to be depressed.
I had to go through an actual grieving process in regards to the loss of ... well, my life as I knew it. Even though we were going to lose our house, it was going to be on OUR terms.. yah know? Did not work out that way though, as most of you know.

Annnyway.. I have started to move on out of a pretty icky bout of the D word. I had to dig deep and quit feeling sorry for myself. It is what it is. Shit happens. I still have my moments. I have finally realized that it is OKAY to look back once in awhile. I just cannot LIVE there. Because when I do, I am missing out on NOW. And NOW is pretty awesome. Sorta. I cannot go into the sorta part here.. but if you remove the sorta, I am dandy.

Confused? LOL

There is an awful lot that I love about this place. One of them is this time of the year, when the mornings are cool and damp. The air has a wonderful fresh quality to it. I wish that I could bottle up for later use. The birds are chirping and the sun is fighting it's way through the fog. Bands of fog rise up off of the river, clinging to the mountain as it slowly makes it's climb. I love to sit and watch..

I love the birds and flowers. Hate the bees and the excessive rains. Always have to remind myself that April showers bring May flowers! LOL

And with that, I am off to make a grocery list. Be jealous. *wink*