I am itching to go camping. So, I think that on Thursday evening, I am going to dig out the tent, and set it up in the yard to let it air out. Then, Friday night we can take the Pea and camp out in the yard and have a fire and stuff. Then.. the following weekend, I wanna camp for real, at a campground. There is one near here, but no one seems to know much about it. I am hoping I can scoot over there to check it out. That will be my birthday weekend. Meh. My Pop died on my birthday in 1997. He died right here in what is now the Pea's playroom. I had been here the week before, spending time with him and the family. I left just three days before he passed. It was awful. I had just started a new job and I could not come back...

Yesterday was icky. I slept awful the night before, and after getting M on the bus yesterday I immediately crawled back into bed. T dragged me out of bed around 11:30. I ate, went to study, gave in around 3 as I could no longer concentrate, and spent some time with the pea playing games. Momma made dinner. I ate, watched Days and a recorded Law & Order LA and went to bed. I was asleep before 9:30. I woke up this morning at 5:30 feeling MUCH better. I wanted to get in a full day of studying, but must run some errands. We are out of a ton of things, the most important of which being toilet paper. :) Today is also my Nanny's birthday. I am going to clip some of her blooming Irises, and take them up to the cemetery. My...

Nikki Sixx posted this on Facebook today... Four Agreements that I try to live by: 1. Be Impeccable with your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love. 2. Don’t Take Anything Personally: Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering. 3. Don’t Make Assumptions: Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings,...

We had a few REAL nice days lately. It was GREAT to get outside. Then I got sick with strep. Awesome. Ugh. T ended up mowing the yard by himself and a few days later I raked up the mess. It felt so good to get moving and spend some time outside!...

I will never forget his face. One day back in 2001, T and I were out doing yard work. We were renting a small house in an okay hood near Busch Gardens. If the wind was blowing in the right direction, you could hear the screams of the people on the coasters. It was a small little house. I had blogged pictures way back when of the ugly blue tiled kitchen, that our landlord graciously agreed to upgrade for us, if we ripped out the old ugliness. Which we gladly did! Anyway, we were out doing yard work. T had gone in to get us something cold to drink and I was mowing. This guy pulls up in an old Blazer and asks me about trimming some trees that were weighing on our power lines. He gave me a business card, from a tree trimming...

I have looked forward to this moment for a very long time. The day when my kid comes through the door from school, with a hand-crafted gift for me, for Mother's Day. Today, my kid walked in the door, and told me that the gift she made was not for me. It was for Grammy. She said that it was a gift for someone special and that she did not want to give it to me. My heart.just.BROKE. I love my mom. And she is AWESOME with M and I love the bond that they have. But god DAMN if that did not make me feel like dying. That kid is my HEART. I know that she is barely 5, and does not understand the severity of her words... but still. She knows enough.. she knows that it was made for someone special, and that person is not her mommy....